...making a commitment.

I have commitment issues.

I know, shocker.

How is it possible a fabulous 33 year old girl (cause I can't quite get myself to type "woman." It's like when someone calls you "Ma'am" or "Lady" as in "That lady helped me" it made me feel old when I was 18, it makes me feel worse now.)

How is it possible that I could be single and 33 and not have commitment issues?

Case in point, this blog. Notice the last time I posted? August. August 26. Officially 2 1/2 months ago. People meet and get married in shorter time. (Clearly, not people with commitment issues.)

So, as I was looking over the blogs of my fabulous friends, I realized that this is a commitment I should keep. I started it, I should finish it.

My dad has a saying: "If not me, who? If not now, when?"

I've decided I need to reinstate that mantra BACK into my life. Mostly because if I can't keep commitments I make to myself, (going to bed, going to the gym, reading my scriptures, staying within my budget) how do I expect to be able to keep commitments to anyone else? Or have I just been putting myself at the bottom of my priority list? Have I been keeping commitments to everyone else before keeping commitments to myself?

So here's the great experiment. I commit to blog again by Sunday. I suppose if I can't commit to blogging for myself, perhaps I can commit to blogging because I'm committing to all of you, my friends. (Wow, just typing this, putting it out there, scary, I've nearly deleted five times... cause if I say this, I really have to do it.)

It's just one step.

One step in a direction I need to go in. Making commitments…because I want to be able to post one day about KEEPING commitments. Scary.

There's just something about making a commitment.